Today my little angel is sick. She has green runny nose and a slight cough. For any mommy that means work and life stops and it's doctor's appointment time. Her's is at 3:30. I called at 8:00 on the dot. Even though they didn't answer and i know they open at 8 sharp, I redialed continuously until they picked up.
She has had a sinus infection three times (including this one b/c I know that is what it is) since she's been born and I beat myself up for it every time. Did I not dress her warm enough, did she catch someone else's germs that I didn't protect her from...countless things go through our minds. Then you are running through the questions to ask the doctor, maybe even going as far as to write a list of every thing you want to ask-just to be sure you don't forget something. Lord knows what could happen if you forget to ask if her feeding habits are ok for the forty-second time since the beginning of her life. I always think when I leave the office, I bet they all think I'm THAT mom. You know, the overprotective, overly cautious, insane mom that thinks the world revolves around her and her child.
Well, I realize now that:
a) They probably do
b) I probably am
c) I don't give a crap
It's amazing the things that happen to you and especially your emotions when that little being enters your life. I cry every time at that damn Duracell commercial of the mom in the park that loses her little Kevin and I immediately think I have to get one of those Brickhouse locator things now!! I teared up uncontrollably in a restaurant this weekend when a waiter delivering food to a table smacked a little girl in the head and she screamed. Just sitting here thinking about Gabrielle now taking her nap and not being able to breathe b/c her nose is stopped up or if her head hurts gets me upset. Now I know some of you are thinking Pregnancy Hormones and I beg you for your safety to never say that around me, but I have to say I don't think so. I'm pretty sure it means that I'm a momma and simply put, that's what mommas do.
For new and old mommas: Becoming Mommy
She has had a sinus infection three times (including this one b/c I know that is what it is) since she's been born and I beat myself up for it every time. Did I not dress her warm enough, did she catch someone else's germs that I didn't protect her from...countless things go through our minds. Then you are running through the questions to ask the doctor, maybe even going as far as to write a list of every thing you want to ask-just to be sure you don't forget something. Lord knows what could happen if you forget to ask if her feeding habits are ok for the forty-second time since the beginning of her life. I always think when I leave the office, I bet they all think I'm THAT mom. You know, the overprotective, overly cautious, insane mom that thinks the world revolves around her and her child.
Well, I realize now that:
a) They probably do
b) I probably am
c) I don't give a crap
It's amazing the things that happen to you and especially your emotions when that little being enters your life. I cry every time at that damn Duracell commercial of the mom in the park that loses her little Kevin and I immediately think I have to get one of those Brickhouse locator things now!! I teared up uncontrollably in a restaurant this weekend when a waiter delivering food to a table smacked a little girl in the head and she screamed. Just sitting here thinking about Gabrielle now taking her nap and not being able to breathe b/c her nose is stopped up or if her head hurts gets me upset. Now I know some of you are thinking Pregnancy Hormones and I beg you for your safety to never say that around me, but I have to say I don't think so. I'm pretty sure it means that I'm a momma and simply put, that's what mommas do.
For new and old mommas: Becoming Mommy
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